Hi, my name is Caroline. And I am a woman.
As clear as I´m feeling it now, I didn't feel it all the time. It started already with my name, which comes from the German Karl = Kerl = engl.: Dude. Then I was really good at sports and all the “boyish” school subjects like math and physics. I preferred playing with boys and I dressed like a boy. I studied something very scientific and did my PhD.
I´ve been a bouncer and I loved hanging out with my guys and thought women are way too complicated and they complain all the time. On the other hand I loved to dance and paint and I had “romantic” relationships with men and I even married, but looking back from where I am now, I see that I was definitely more in my masculine energy.
With time I started to feel that something was missing. I had irritations, couldn’t sleep anymore and even had some panic attacks. My divorce was one of the biggest shifts in my life, because from then on my divine feminine and her 12 archetypes graped me and pushed me and drove me to become a woman. And I didn't just jump out of the egg and say: “Here I am! I'm a woman!” I actually stood there and thought: “Wow, I have no clue what it means to be a woman!” That was 2015. Since then I went to school. Literally! I read books, went to countless workshops and learned from amazing mentors (some of them were male), I started to learn about Medicine, Kundalini energy, tantric practices, BDSM and de-armoring. And all the time THEY were present. They were speaking to me through friends and foreigners. They introduced themself in moments where I didn’t know where to go. Sometimes I was fighting them, but I didn't succeed.
Sometimes I looked out for them, but they didn’t show up. Until my mentors like Peter Orban or Alexandra Schwarz-Schilling and of course C.G.Jung helped me to understand them. Suddenly they had names and were filled with life. Slowly the shadows around them started to dissolve. And then, throughout a breath workshop it struck me and suddenly it all started to make sense. I understood the structure of the twelve and their impact on all our lives and I realized:
“I need to create a workshop for women and introduce them to the best teachers of female power: the 12 female archetypes.” I want to give others this compass that helped me so much to navigate my life into my female power. And so they came alife: the 12 Goddesses.